different people different way...

i am always taking things seriously. perhaps it is. finally, today, i got an answer how to face it properly...

i am too stubborn. many people told me that i have cared about friendship too much. when you reach a new environment, find only one true,real, and simple friend. one is more than enough. unfortunately, i can't. i always think that it is my fault. probably, i have too many weak points. that is why others could have a close friend but i don't...

today is a grown up day. finally, i got the answer today. actually, i got so many close friend. friends in different state, different form and different way. state means level. many things got its own level. games got level. study got level. even society gt its level. men are so selfish. we will automatically put people that we know in different level. form does not mean body shape. it means way of thinking. we become friend because there are some kind of thinking from us is the same. way means the method that we treat our friends. the above two things affect way.

i got many friends in different level. secondary school's friends as a level. they were limited by the secondary school's topic. i do have some close friend there. i always hope that i could be brought back there. however, the friends there were being prohibited. not much friend can cross over the level.

recently, i wrote in my friends facebook (vincent lew). making friends is not a matter of tolerance. it is a matter of understanding. we can be friend to anyone. because we have some same thinking. of course. everyone have his own deflects. so, if you are his friends. you the key of the locks. you can help him to open the lock from his heart. if you could not, why he need you as his friend??? tolerance will make you angry in the end. but understanding would not. instead understanding make you know him better.

level limited me to have topics with my friends. understanding let me know my friends.both of these affects me how to treat my friends. so, there is different way for different people. therefore, you can blame me that i am wearing mask when facing different people. i admit that i am. this is because i respect the way of treating friends. if you don't respect it. you will get hurt.

i find a new way to treat the friends who don't like me. keep quiet and doing still. you can say that i am stupid. as this will let them keep hating me since i do nothing. you are wrong! doing still and doing nothing are two different thing. since they are not my key. why should i care about them???