写给你 我部落格的第一篇华文文章 我部落格的最后一篇

我只是从来都不知道。原来，我也有那么婆妈的时候。其实，也只不过是写篇文章，我还在犹豫。也许，我担心你看文章的反应。答应我！看了后，别有任何猜想。好吗？

不知道是几时开始，更不知道是什么时候…… 我很不小心的将一切都复杂化。对不起！一切是我的错。你会原谅我吗？还是……其实，你把这一切，都不当成一回事？

我不知道该从何说起~应该是那天晚上吧~我问你：我察觉到我们的感情有问题了~你的回答是：我只是突然觉得我跟xx和yy很谈得来~其实，那时的我，顿时愣了。我心想：一定是我做错了些什么。一定是！一定是！~我却从来没有察觉：原来，这一次是我的察觉让我出了问题。

我尝试在改！我努力在改！无论如何，我都仿佛得不回你的真挚。你在我心中有一定的地位。为了证明我没有看走眼，我努力追寻，却总是无法挽回。~我太迟了吗？是因为我没有经验，而不懂得怎么维持吗？

阴差阳错还是刻意安排或者是纯属巧合?我们靠近了些。终于做了这种决定，别人怎么说我不理，只要你也一样的肯定。

事情发生了。我们不是说好要坦白吗？为什么你不喜欢我的事是由第三个来告诉我？当时的我真的好失望。我开始逃避，不敢面对。我只好假装看不到，看不到我们的问题。我只好假装我听不到，听不到一切的嘲笑。

其实，我还是很在意的。你说的话，你留的留言，我总在留意。只是身份不一样了。我走不近了。我找不到，我到不了，那种所谓的真挚。

别人说：你讲我是个很情绪化，粗俗，差劣的人
别人说：你讲我自以为是
你有吗？我相信：你没有！

其实，你都没错啊！是我太自私，太不懂得人言险恶，太不了解人情。

我还在改

我有了一个新的名字

我知道回不去从前，但我希望能展望未来。

好吗？

Rickie Ang

Love Rickie

Days come and go... I find out that there are many weakness in valentime... he is too stubborn... or he is too selfish... he is too pessimistic... but is it your duty to tell him that it is his weakness??? isn't it???? he is irresponsible... he push all his fault to the others...

That is why i love Rickie so much... At least he will be not tired on grabbing the success...

Rickie Ang...

Remember Rickie

Just suddenly feel like hate valentime so much... Haha... Many people don't even know who is valentime... He is not important anymore... If you know him, can you please forgive him and forget him??? And... Of course... Remember Rickie Ang please....

Rickie Ang...

New Identity

If you know me well... you have discovered that i am having a new identity... The new identity means everything to me... He means new life for me... He means everything should have an end... Include this blog... Include my e-mail address... Include my old style thinking... I hope that you can accept my new identity...
by calling me... Rickie Ang...

I just feel like crying

I just don't know why... I want to cry... but I hope that people know that I am crying... In such a way, they will stop accuse me...

I just don't know why... I want to cry... but I couldn't find a suitable shoulder for me... Does it mean that it is a suitable time for me to cry???

i believe you...

I heard so many that you talk about me... the words are so cruel...

I ignore them...

it is just simply because...
I BELIEVE YOU

It is all about CHEMISTRY...

someone(probably is Xavier)says: biology is about the mental and mind. Physics is about physical things. and CHEMISTRY is the one who link both the two things together.(i think i have changed it a bit)

i totally agree to this... lets imagine... you are a small particle... making friends is like carrying reaction with them. but... not everyone can react with you... there are many reasons why you can react with them... your own structure( personality)... your temperature(temper)... your concentration( will )... your pressure ( action )... and the one that you cannot control.... the catalyst( fate or accident )

ya... catalyst is fate... Fate will arrange who do you will to meet.
yes... catalyst is accident... You will the one accidentally...

now... i want to have an aggressive reaction... perhaps is an explosion... my temperature is high... my concentration is corrosive... my pressure can kill anybody... and... I want to add the catalyst... but i am still waiting the catalyst to come...

i don't know what will happen after this reaction... so... you must stop the catalyst from coming... i hope that the catalyst is added from your hand...